Running In Water

I hope to someday soon publish a poetry book called Running In Water! It's really hard to get published when you write poetry so until I can get published I will be posting my poetry on social media and on this part of my website!

When I was struggling most I felt that I was running in water, pushing so hard using up so much energy to find that I had barely moved at all, but instead had created massive waves and splashes in my frantic commotion. After a long time I realised that it's impossible to run in water, especially without leaving a mess, so now I float and I hope anyone struggling can find it in them to, let go and just float too.

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The meaning behind Running in Water,

When I was struggling the most, I felt like I was running in water, pushing so hard against the waves of emotion and traumas I was going through using so much energy up as I did so, to look around and find out that I had barely moved at all but instead I had created massive waves in different directions and splashes soaking me and people around me.

After a very long time I realised that it’s impossible to run in water, especially without leaving a mess behind. So instead, I tried walking, as I walked, I realised that I was still clinging on to the water around me as it resisted and tripped me up. With nothing to hold, I’d fall causing a massive splash, again waves diverted off all my limbs and so I realised that walking wasn’t an option either.

Letting myself lay in the water I began to swim immediately; I swam and swam and even though I began to make faster progress my head was still under water, and I was becoming increasingly exhausted from having to use all my energy to try and get to shore.

Then in a sudden moment of exhaustion I realised, was it really worth all the energy, was it really worth clinging on to everything, I took a deep breath and let go of everything that I had been trying to change, everything that had set me back, and I just floated, it no longer mattered about getting to shore, I knew that the waves would take me there if that’s where I was supposed to go, but for now, I just let myself float.